I think my fiancee is really cruel to the point that, whenever I'm really down (not normal sadness, really sadness to the grave). She'll really leave me alone and let me fend for myself.

How I wish this wasn't true. This wasn't the first time, actions have convinced me otherwise. I've history of suicidal before I know Christ, although I've overcome most of it, it usually comes back whenever I'm lowest point in life.

To think I've to face it alone.....This is truly....unbelieveable. She went to SOT before even. If this is the kind of students SOT produce, I'll gladly for the rest of my life never to take a step in. Of course, maybe...this is just one story out of many good stories.


Very sad, to face it alone. I know there's God around, I know & I know. It's just that...God is still very quiet now.....