I'm very cool on the outside, cool exterior to my friends, cool exterior to my colleagues.

The truth is, my old nature is at work, it is boiling inside of me. It seeks it's own, telling me to fight for my own comfort, selfishly. Afterall, I did the work, I deserve it. There should be no reward for those complaining. I can be as wicked as I can be, and provide a very strong reason to defend myself. Yet the word of God abides in me as well, it is always at war with the old nature. To always stand for what is right, and practice Godly values.

To let all go and give up is the easy way out for me, it'll be faster for me to breathe, at the sacrifice of others. I know and I know, God will come true for me, just that I do not know how long I need to hang on, or can I hang on till God comes true for me?

Whom have I in heaven but You? There is nothing on earth I desire, besides You. I'm holding on, for nobody else, but You.